Something for the Weekend

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Sex and Validation

Sometimes it works, and sometimes it doesn't.

Tonight, it didn't.

It's no secret to anybody who knows me that I've been having a crisis of self-confidence recently. And with my all-too-recent return to life outside a hospital ward, I'm feeling rather fragile and, well, useless. All those things that used to occupy my time, uni, work, friends... gone. I wonder whatever happened to the latter?

My attempted reconciliation (ongoing...) with H, and the confusion over my feelings for him (I know I love him, I'm just not sure how I feel about that), coupled with my bizarre and now bordering on destructive and unrequited love (yes, I fear I love him, too?) for my closest friend - it's all taken it's toll. Tonight, I just wanted to stop worrying about what, or who, I want, and feel wanted.

Cue K, an old, erm... "friend." We chatted online for a while, talked about the times we met. I remembered him telling me he liked me, in a way ("You're kinda fit, and you're well good in bed,") so thought I'd give it a go. I asked him if he wanted to meet up tonight, and 20 minutes later he picked me up outside. We didn't quite make it to his place, and ended up instead in a Tesco car park, he did explain that he was ridiculously horny, too. The sex was mechanically awesome, just like it was before - all 5 minutes of it, if that. There was a very awkward moment where he wouldn't kiss me, but it was all totally eclipsed when he proclaimed, "I'm cumming!" and within seconds, pushed me off him, removed the rubber and turned the key in the ignition WHILE zipping up his jeans. Literally a selfish fucker. That's the worst kind of fucker there is.

When I got in, I experienced a whole new situation for me - too horny not to wank, but too pissed off to get hard. Let's see if Devin can cure what ails me...

Hunk of the Week, Enrique Iglesias

I'm a massive Springsteen fan - so I don't tolerate covers very well. But Enrique Iglesias is just hot enough to have pulled it off in his 2000 cover of "Sad Eyes."

This album brings back many, many memories (but that's another story!) but I had no idea that the music video had been banned by MTV and other music television channels because it was simply too hot for TV. The video resurfaced this week and, what can I say? You've gotta love YouTube, right?

Enjoy!

So yeah... I'm back.

My break from blogging, and from life in general for the past 9 months was unexpected, to say the least. In my absence I've thought many times about the friends I've made through blogging, and the things I've learned about myself, and others here. I wondered if I'd come back to blogging when I was back on my feet, as they say. And I have to say, the e-mails I received through this blog sealed the deal for me, so I'd like to thank everyone who contacted me with their concerns, and kind words. I'll begin posting again within the next few days.

Peace, once again, my friends (and foes).

Something for the Weekend

The Love of My Life

Har'el Skaat, you just have to, really, don't you?


But for me, it's "בתוך" all the way!

Workout Wednesday, Abs

Israel Goes to the Polls

And as I prepare to leave for the embassy to vote, I wonder, which party does Roei represent, right here?

Hunk of the Week, Andrew Stetson

This 29 year old Canadian model is a sight for sore eyes, first thing on a Monday morning. Andrew Stetson began his career as a carpenter, becoming a male fashion model at the age of 19. Stetson was discovered by Norwayne Anderson of the NAM agency. "I spotted him at a bar and circled him for half an hour so I could see him from every angle", his agent says. "It was his lips and eyes that got me."

His body got me, too!

After a year of modeling in New York and Europe, he returned to renovating homes. Stetson started a home renovation business. He says, "I worked right away, doing editorial and catalogues in New York, Paris and Milan. But I really missed carpentry. I missed building things."

We get it. Hot, strong, and good with his hands...

Five years later, his friends and family encouraged him to return to modeling. He has since walked for top fashion shows, and has appeared in numerous ad campaigns for Armani, Chanel, Dolce & Gabbana, Zara, Calvin Klein, Levi's, Bloomingdales, and H&M. Despite his successful modeling career, Stetson says he wants to return to carpentry. "I'm making the most of modelling. But to be honest, I would rather go back to carpentry. I love carpentry. It's not work to me. And it keeps me grounded and balanced. There are not a lot of models who have something else to fall back on."

Something tells me that you're not going to need much to fall back on, Andrew. Except, perhaps, my bed...

Something for the Weekend

Tyra Banks, Gay For Pay

A few weeks ago, Tyra had a show about "gay for pay" dancers, barmen and porn stars. Two of her most high profile guests on this show were expert fucker Aaron James (AJ) and power bottom Kurt Wild of CollegeDudes247 fame. Geography meant that I missed the show, but thanks to the wonders of the internet, I could catch it online, and you can too.

I thought the show was amusing, and informative enough for a daytime TV talk show. I took real issue with Sean Kennedy's argument, though, that he felt these "gay for pay" guys were harming the gay scene. He seemed unhappy that they allowed straight guys into gay bars at all, which I find odd, coming from a member of a minority community which should know all about sexual discrimination. His notion that porn was associated with orgies, drug abuse and unsafe sex probably did far more to harm the gay community than any of these other guys could do. Kinda sad that nobody mentioned the fact that these "gay for pay" porn stars, specifically, and their studios become phenomenal safer sex advocates. Oh well, Sean, I still like your magazine.

And for those of you who just want to see AJ and Kurt in action, here's a little taster...



Or, click here.

Winter Wallpaper

Workout Wednesday, Arms

Wednesday is the one day of the week where I get to spend more than an hour at the gym. Today I was snowed in, and decided instead to try a home workout. I discovered this guy on youtube while searching for a new arm workout. It's not as "full arm workout" as I'd hoped, but I've watched it about 5 times, and I already feel fitter. The plus side is, my arms aren't even burning.

I wonder where I put those dumbells...

Hunk of the Week, Steve Jones

Welsh hunk Steve Jones is a well known presenter from Channel 4's T4, and has given my hungover self something spunky to stare at on many weekends.

Jones is 31, and comes from the Rhondda in South Wales. He began his career working as a model for Esquire magazine, but shot to fame when he started presenting The Pop Factory and 99 Things To Do Before You Die.

Depending on where you're from, he may be better known for his romantic connections (real or fabricated by magazines which shall remain nameless) with Halle Berry, Pamela Anderson, Natalie Imbruglia, Paris Hilton, Angelina Jolie, Mariah Carey and lately, Fearne Cotton. The list goes on, and who can blame these women for wanting to be seen with this stud on their arm?

In 2008, Steve landed his first acting role in Brit Teen Comedy Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging, and is currently considering more acting roles.

We can only hope he gets topless in any future roles.

And who could forget my favourite TV moment, Steve casting a dildo from his own cock on national television, and showing us the result!

Oh, and if that wasn't enough, here he is shaming the nation pre-watershed...

No Regret (2006)

No Regret is the first gay feature film by an openly gay Korean director, Lee Song Hee-Il.

When I read the synopsis, I was sceptical. Orphan becomes gigolo, rich obsessive stalks him, pair fall in love, arranged marriage threatens to rip them apart but doesn't. It just seems a little too, well... gay-themed movie.

No Regret opens with Su-Min (Lee Young-Hoon) swimming in a river near his idyllic countryside orphanage. Cue ass shot, and boy, what a beautiful ass it is, too!

We follow Su-Min as he leaves the orphanage, and sets out for the big smoke, Seoul. Here Su-Min struggles to make ends meet, working two jobs to put himself through night school. It's in his job as a chauffeur that he meets Jae-Min (Lee Han), who propositions Su-Min, only to be turned down. When Su-Min is fired from his day job at a factory, we learn that Jae-Min is the son of the boss. Su-Min is rehired, only to quit again on principle. Are you following so far?

Su-Min drops out of night school, and ends up working as a gigolo in Seoul. It just wouldn't be a gay themed film if there wasn't a gigolo in it somewhere, would it? It's here that Jae-Min manages to track him down through a friend, and the two meet again. Jae-Min pays him for sex, where we're told that Su-Min doesn't take it up the ass, so we get to see this gorgeous young gigolo turn his hand to topping his stalker. Despite the childish, awkward jerking and gasping, I was still, almost inexplicably turned on by this scene. Before leaving, Su-Min threatens to kill him if he sees him again. Though, I'm not quite sure why...

And so the story goes. Rich guy stalks orphan, until finally, orphan gives in, and the pair fall madly, and deeply in love. In one touching scene, Su-Min offers up his ass to his lover, so we're left in little doubt as to the feelings between the pair. He quits working as a gigolo, and achieves some semblance of normality in his life for what, we assume, is the first time.

But of course, we know that the story can't end here. Where's the tragedy?

Jae-Min's arranged marriage, the death of one of Su-Min's best friends, and a rather dark, violent and confusing ending see to that.

But of course, Su-Min and Jae-Min both survive, and, we're led to believe, end up together by the time the credits roll.

No Regret left me with more questions than it answered, rather like a French movie. This wasn't a bad thing, though, and despite a very corny plot, Lee Song Hee-Il created a masterpiece against all the odds, which had me transfixed from the first flash of Lee Young-Hoon's rear end to the end of the final scene. Beautifully shot, cast and acted, I certainly don't regret having watched it. Definitely one of the best Asian movies I've watched.