Friday, 20 November 2009
Wednesday, 18 November 2009
Sometimes it works, and sometimes it doesn't.
Tonight, it didn't.
It's no secret to anybody who knows me that I've been having a crisis of self-confidence recently. And with my all-too-recent return to life outside a hospital ward, I'm feeling rather fragile and, well, useless. All those things that used to occupy my time, uni, work, friends... gone. I wonder whatever happened to the latter?
My attempted reconciliation (ongoing...) with H, and the confusion over my feelings for him (I know I love him, I'm just not sure how I feel about that), coupled with my bizarre and now bordering on destructive and unrequited love (yes, I fear I love him, too?) for my closest friend - it's all taken it's toll. Tonight, I just wanted to stop worrying about what, or who, I want, and feel wanted.
Cue K, an old, erm... "friend." We chatted online for a while, talked about the times we met. I remembered him telling me he liked me, in a way ("You're kinda fit, and you're well good in bed,") so thought I'd give it a go. I asked him if he wanted to meet up tonight, and 20 minutes later he picked me up outside. We didn't quite make it to his place, and ended up instead in a Tesco car park, he did explain that he was ridiculously horny, too. The sex was mechanically awesome, just like it was before - all 5 minutes of it, if that. There was a very awkward moment where he wouldn't kiss me, but it was all totally eclipsed when he proclaimed, "I'm cumming!" and within seconds, pushed me off him, removed the rubber and turned the key in the ignition WHILE zipping up his jeans. Literally a selfish fucker. That's the worst kind of fucker there is.
When I got in, I experienced a whole new situation for me - too horny not to wank, but too pissed off to get hard. Let's see if Devin can cure what ails me...
Monday, 16 November 2009
I'm a massive Springsteen fan - so I don't tolerate covers very well. But Enrique Iglesias is just hot enough to have pulled it off in his 2000 cover of "Sad Eyes."
This album brings back many, many memories (but that's another story!) but I had no idea that the music video had been banned by MTV and other music television channels because it was simply too hot for TV. The video resurfaced this week and, what can I say? You've gotta love YouTube, right?
Wednesday, 11 November 2009
My break from blogging, and from life in general for the past 9 months was unexpected, to say the least. In my absence I've thought many times about the friends I've made through blogging, and the things I've learned about myself, and others here. I wondered if I'd come back to blogging when I was back on my feet, as they say. And I have to say, the e-mails I received through this blog sealed the deal for me, so I'd like to thank everyone who contacted me with their concerns, and kind words. I'll begin posting again within the next few days.
Peace, once again, my friends (and foes).
Peace, once again, my friends (and foes).
Saturday, 14 February 2009
Thursday, 12 February 2009
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
Tuesday, 10 February 2009
Monday, 9 February 2009
This 29 year old Canadian model is a sight for sore eyes, first thing on a Monday morning. Andrew Stetson began his career as a carpenter, becoming a male fashion model at the age of 19. Stetson was discovered by Norwayne Anderson of the NAM agency. "I spotted him at a bar and circled him for half an hour so I could see him from every angle", his agent says. "It was his lips and eyes that got me."
His body got me, too!
After a year of modeling in New York and Europe, he returned to renovating homes. Stetson started a home renovation business. He says, "I worked right away, doing editorial and catalogues in New York, Paris and Milan. But I really missed carpentry. I missed building things."
We get it. Hot, strong, and good with his hands...
Five years later, his friends and family encouraged him to return to modeling. He has since walked for top fashion shows, and has appeared in numerous ad campaigns for Armani, Chanel, Dolce & Gabbana, Zara, Calvin Klein, Levi's, Bloomingdales, and H&M. Despite his successful modeling career, Stetson says he wants to return to carpentry. "I'm making the most of modelling. But to be honest, I would rather go back to carpentry. I love carpentry. It's not work to me. And it keeps me grounded and balanced. There are not a lot of models who have something else to fall back on."
Something tells me that you're not going to need much to fall back on, Andrew. Except, perhaps, my bed...