Something for the Weekend

Caribbeansexyguy from Xtube has really floated my boat today. The guy's on fire, check him out!

Sex and Validation

Sometimes it works, and sometimes it doesn't.

Tonight, it didn't.

It's no secret to anybody who knows me that I've been having a crisis of self-confidence recently. And with my all-too-recent return to life outside a hospital ward, I'm feeling rather fragile and, well, useless. All those things that used to occupy my time, uni, work, friends... gone. I wonder whatever happened to the latter?

My attempted reconciliation (ongoing...) with H, and the confusion over my feelings for him (I know I love him, I'm just not sure how I feel about that), coupled with my bizarre and now bordering on destructive and unrequited love (yes, I fear I love him, too?) for my closest friend - it's all taken it's toll. Tonight, I just wanted to stop worrying about what, or who, I want, and feel wanted.

Cue K, an old, erm... "friend." We chatted online for a while, talked about the times we met. I remembered him telling me he liked me, in a way ("You're kinda fit, and you're well good in bed,") so thought I'd give it a go. I asked him if he wanted to meet up tonight, and 20 minutes later he picked me up outside. We didn't quite make it to his place, and ended up instead in a Tesco car park, he did explain that he was ridiculously horny, too. The sex was mechanically awesome, just like it was before - all 5 minutes of it, if that. There was a very awkward moment where he wouldn't kiss me, but it was all totally eclipsed when he proclaimed, "I'm cumming!" and within seconds, pushed me off him, removed the rubber and turned the key in the ignition WHILE zipping up his jeans. Literally a selfish fucker. That's the worst kind of fucker there is.

When I got in, I experienced a whole new situation for me - too horny not to wank, but too pissed off to get hard. Let's see if Devin can cure what ails me...

Hunk of the Week, Enrique Iglesias

I'm a massive Springsteen fan - so I don't tolerate covers very well. But Enrique Iglesias is just hot enough to have pulled it off in his 2000 cover of "Sad Eyes."

This album brings back many, many memories (but that's another story!) but I had no idea that the music video had been banned by MTV and other music television channels because it was simply too hot for TV. The video resurfaced this week and, what can I say? You've gotta love YouTube, right?

Enjoy!

So yeah... I'm back.

My break from blogging, and from life in general for the past 9 months was unexpected, to say the least. In my absence I've thought many times about the friends I've made through blogging, and the things I've learned about myself, and others here. I wondered if I'd come back to blogging when I was back on my feet, as they say. And I have to say, the e-mails I received through this blog sealed the deal for me, so I'd like to thank everyone who contacted me with their concerns, and kind words. I'll begin posting again within the next few days.

Peace, once again, my friends (and foes).